I realize that now is about the time people start making excuses for what they got up to in the previous semester, so I’m a little afraid that’s what I’m doing now …
But every other semester I have this crash. I just lose it for a week, maybe two, then I put my house back in order and get down to work. I had a prof once who advised me not to fight the crash or try to avoid it, but simply to do what I could to make sure the crash didn’t coincide with any major evaluation.
Well, I think I’m realizing now that this semester I had my crash at the beginning of October, and I never really bounced back from it. I’ve shrugged it off and joked with friends and family about never getting things done on time, or “That assignment wasn’t worth much anyway,” but now it’s really crunch time and its occurring to me how badly I’ve screwed myself over the last 2 months.
Even just admitting that to myself constitutes a massive loss of face. If I have to make up credits next semester or, God forbid, stick around an extra 8 months to redo a required course … the world won’t end. It wouldn’t be so bad, really. But it would require a dramatic rearrangement of my life, and it would be a little humbling to have to admit to certain people that I had to come back an extra semester because “I just didn’t really feel like doing my schoolwork last fall.”